1958--Family started 3 years of pizza production in our house, sold 18,000 out the door. I developed an affection for garlic, social life deteriorated. Perfected Elvis Presley imitation, only venture into popular music.

1961--Our family felt out of place in Texas, even in a college town, and we moved to the coast of Massachusetts, where I learned to love the ocean.

1962--Frustrated with piano and quit, still can't play worth beans--must be karma.
1965--Started violin lessons, rather behind the competition.

1967-9--After miserable years enduring public school, got scholarship to private elementary school where I learned that I was not only not rich, but rather neurotic and ready to leave home

1969-73--which I did by boarding at Phillips Academy, Andover Mass.; gained a goofy snob accent, intellectual presumptions. Came to school uptight know-it-all brat, left school very well suited to function in that environment, and evidently nowhere else! Started study of Bhagavad Gita, meditated, introduced to yoga by my mother, remembered past lives and helped others do the same, magnificent first psychedelic experiences. Switched from plans to be a scientist to music composition. (Don't worry, I eventually switched back after thirty years of starvation!)

1973-4--Turned down Harvard, went to Eastman School of Music, got a mediocre grade in English from a teacher whose teeth were flattened by gnashing. God intervened; I lost my scholarship and had to leave before losing mind due to cold, dank weather and neurotic social conditions. Little maturity in evidence, failed to switch to some more rational field of study, such as, say, physics.

1974--Returned to Denton and NTSU. Studied violin, composition, conducting, no employable skills. No haircut for four years, except by attrition.

1976--Height of Strangeness; during Homecoming Weekend, ran in election for Homecoming Phenomenon (not wanting title of "Homecoming Queen"), got 2000 votes, came in second. Graduate-level study of conducting, including "Rite of Spring".

1978--My conducting teacher, head of the orchestra at NTSU, promised performance of an orchestral work, starting many years of my labor on orchestral scores and parts, none of which have been used.

1978-80--Started having severe pain in hips and back, natural therapy didn't work. Wrote series of 64 movements in 21 sonatas for solo violin, one movement for each hexagram in the "I Ching". Just before finishing the last sonata, had to quit playing violin due to arthritis in neck and shoulders. Sold the instrument in 1982.

1979--spring 1980--Left Texas for Boston to study macrobiotics. Exposure to Normal Working World, temporary office work, impressed me as Heart of Darkness. As my health worsened, macrobiotic friends and teachers saw me as defective and guilty of disease in accordance with their interpretation of traditional Japanese morality. I alienated friends and family with rigid attitude. Started strange physics experiment in basement, blew fuses, attracted fire department at 4 am due to dense smoke, failed to achieve transmutation. The usual.

Spring 1980--Couldn't take the city anymore, moved to rural inland Maine, two miles from the road in extreme isolation. Lived in tent during summer, fixed up a hunting cabin for the following winter, foraged the woods for wild food. Finished first mature, big work, "The Goldbug Variations" for two pianos, later arranged for various groups including orchestra. Two years of work, played once (piano version) for 25 people in 1982. Ego couldn't take a hint. First major attack of arthritis. Wore out calculator trying to figure out Life, the Universe, and Everything, with wild effort at a theory including transcendental planes…frustrated with lack of training and no experimental basis.

1981--Spent winter in extreme conditions; tracked snow in door, swept out three days later. Two showers in four months, every week or so would melt snow for sponge bath. Developed interesting aroma, kept bears out of basement. Ran out of money in early spring (spent $500 total all year!), went to gather seaweed on the coast of Maine. With condition worsening, found out diagnosis of ankylosing spondylitis in back and hips; qualified for government disability payments (SSI) as 100% disabled. Back to NTSU to study physics and math, finally to get good training and skills.

1982--Constant severe pain, went to hospital and had one hip joint replaced. Six months later, just coming off crutches, got mugged, leg broken and head beaten by an angry man out on bond for a rape charge. Quit school as too physically difficult after 1 ½ years of physics and math. Finished Symphony #2, had first recital in 5 ½ years. Was expecting confirmation of delusion of grandeur momentarily. Made break with macrobiotics with extreme prejudice, at long last, and good riddance.
1984--Back to school, got degree in composition. Wrote a big piano concerto, many works for live performance by four or five synthesizers, all subsequently severely revised or discarded (twenty years later). First Rainbow Gathering in California, very amazing. 20,000 hippies in the mountains.

1985--Bought first car, 1962 VW bug, just about functional, drove alone with no heat in sub-freezing fog and ice to Denver and back to visit my sister Akanda; bought local papers en route to stuff in holes, drove while in sleeping bag despite interference with pedals. Engine froze solid in after-dark rush hour traffic on interstate going into Denver, wasn't killed due to sharp reflexes. Started to build a transcommunication device for experimental basis for transcendental physics. Weird stuff.

1986--Health improved quite a bit due to weightlifting, brief steroid therapy, and anti-inflammatory medicine, also activity of physics project. Tired of Texas, moved to southern New Mexico.

1987--Project stalled in desert; spent summer on the east coast with my new Klepper sea kayak, started major affection for kayak sailing and paddling. Moved to North Carolina after seeing the state during the Rainbow Gathering there.

1988-9--Moved to countryside north of Charlotte, good place to do project; built a mahogany kayak as well. Many hours cutting metal, plastic, glass, 2x4s, in the name of Research. Built Most Bizarre Creation in History of Fringe Science, including a geodesic dome 24' across, 18' tall with a steerable 1400 lb. antenna suspended from the peak, and a trailer full of gizmos.

1991-First half of year, constructed electric violins with adaptive gear to hold the instrument and support my bow arm; but after six months it hurt too bad to continue. Got into a difference of opinion with the government, will relate the story when the culture has changed.

1995--In February I started designing a small fusion reactor based on sonoluminescence. I continued on this until April '96 when I saw this approach is hopeless… Also taught myself yacht design, using the physics/math training.

1997-After years of legal difficulties and severe poverty, got back on SSI and Medicaid, then had my artificial hip removed and replaced in September. SSI back pay helped me get an old car. Continued strong interest in exotic approaches to fusion.

1998--2001After recovery from the surgery I sold my car and bought a 25-year-old Winnebago (in VERY bad shape!) and after minimal fixing up drove away from North Carolina in mid-June 1998. Two years cruising mostly in the southwest, then a year parked in Charlotte NC applying for Vocational Rehabilitation help to go back to college. Then August 2001 I started at NCSU as a student in physics. Bought a mobility scooter and a car, moved to Raleigh in August to start on the Academic Path to Enlightenment....a BS in three years, then (eventually) to the Sacred Doctorate, along with figuring out Life, the Universe, and Everything. Having a blast although 26 years behind my fellow sophomores-getting my aging brain to weasel through a lot of new tricks, quite a challenge. Finally am in a harmonious environment where what I have to offer is valued. 

2002-invented and constructed a 6-string electric violin that I held like a cello, with adaptive gear, to get around arthritic limitations. Also bought an old upright piano and am back to composing music. Arranged Bach and my own solo violin music for the 6-string; and had a curved bow that allowed polyphonic playing. Attended the local Hare Krishna temple for months but then stepped back from that. Studied plasma physics and started getting a good grounding in professional skills. Now armed with a recumbent tricycle--so many pedestrians, so little time…Vocational Rehabilitation bought me digital hearing aids to address the hearing loss evident for a couple of years.

2003-My mother generously gave me her upright piano, so composition is much more fun now. Spent the summer doing undergrad level nuclear physics at Ann Arbor and writing, among other things, a chamber concerto for piano, string orchestra and timpani; a string quartet/string orchestra piece, and several vocal/choral works. Had to quit even the highly customized electric violin as the arthritis is just too severe. Converted old ink scores into the new Finale format that lets people hear a synthesized version. September: completed my first CD. November: first performance by an ensemble when the Raleigh Civic Chamber Orchestra played Nocturne and Minuet for string orchestra.

2004 —Spring: Accepted here at NCSU to continue physics in grad school. Completed 2^nd CD, 11 Sonatas for Solo Violin/Viola. Summer: wrote music like mad, all for winds and brass. Fall: started grad school (very difficult and tiring!) and put a new web site up, a big step forward. Proposed a research project—a novel form of plasma trap that might turn into an interesting reactor of some sort—fusion? Made more money grading papers in one semester than all the wages reported to the government since 1970--$6400!

2005 —Winter: My mother died February 6 after a long illness in Nashville, Tennessee. Released 3^rd and 4^th CDs. Spring semester saw composition of “Gayatri Sonata” for ‘cello and piano; last movement premiered here at NCSU in the fall. Then spent all summer either on the road (trip out west) or working on “Art of the Synthesizer”, a work from the mid-eighties originally intended for live performance by five synths. Now it’s designed to sequence and is on the 4^th CD. November, premier performance of “Elements of Wind and Wood” for woodwind quintet in Nashville by symphony musicians.

2006 — Finished “Der Jammerwock”, a setting of “Jabberwocky” in German (!) for either nonet or chamber orchestra and baritone solo. Started construction of the fusion project in August in a lab at NCSU, making great progress. Had a recital at Duke consisting of several of my solo violin sonatas played by a Eric Pritchard and some students. Wrote a sonata for flute and piano, and a trio for oboe, violin and piano requested by Joseph and Mary Kay Robinson. Next completed “Quartet for a New Beginning” for violin, clarinet, cello and piano, and at the end of the year started Ananda Concerto for violin and orchestra for Eric and released my 5th CD.